Falling Apart...

Well, lets see. I was up until about 3am this morning studying and didn't wake up until 8am, which made me late to work this morning.

Work was really busy for some reason today which was probably a good thing because it kept me awake. I'm getting only a couple hours of sleep a night, just having issues trying to get to sleep when I finally do go to bed, not a good thing.

Last night I had my last lab test in Anatomy & Physiology and I'm happy to report I aced it. I also got an "A" average in the class which means I'm exempt from the exam tomorrow night, one less final to study and stress over. Tonight I had my final in Exercise Physiology and I needed to do well in order to pass the class. I got a low "D" on my last test which really brought down my average. In order to pass the class you need to have a 70 average and as of last Thursday I had a 67. I feel like I've been working hard but why do I have such a low average? Well, I'm not the only one in the class that seems to be struggling, it seems others are having similar problems. The problems are with the instructor, hes not well organized and never seems to stay on point. Very hard to follow his lectures, he's all over the place. The book is not well put together which makes reading all the more difficult. In talking with one of my classmates tonight after the final she was telling me that his other classes are really struggling with his teaching and not doing well. So, needless to say I've been really stressed about this final exam I took tonight and I studied the best I could which is all I can do. I feel like I did OK but will just have to see. I'm stressing big time over it and I need to let it go. Because of his poor teaching skills I may take the class again down the road, will see.

So, I'm really excited that I don't have to take tomorrow nights final because my brother is coming into town tomorrow afternoon for the night before he heads up north to see the parental units for Christmas. We'll have a good time!

One more final left to take and it will be finished at least until Jan. It's really a good thing too because I'm really tired and worn out. Tonight I just fell apart, hence the title above, just too much. Besides the family, job, and school stuff there has been alot going on with the homeowners association that I'm in charge of. Its been quiet for the most part since I started classes but just in the last 3 weeks stuff started cropping up that needed attention. I feel like I'm having an emotional breakdown, I feel like things are caving in on me and I have no control of my life right now, just really overwhelmed. I'm really looking forward to some much needed time off where I'm not having to study for a test or worry about deadlines at work. I will be off the entire week after Christmas and will enjoy every minute with Ashli and Gracie. This week has been especially hard because when getting home from work and running around to get ready to run out the door to school Gracie has been crying for me to stay, it just breaks my heart into pieces to pull out of that driveway and see her standing in the doorway crying and waving at the same time. Ahh, thank goodness next semester will be only one night a week, now that's more like the correct balance of priorities.

One thing I'm really starting to miss is running. I can't wait to get back to a normal schedule of running, what a good stress reliever. I miss it and will be back to it very soon, I mean I am the running man for crying out loud!:)

Check out the new pics! - Tired Jason